I tell myself this every day

I tell myself this every day

Friday, June 7, 2013

There Is Nothing You Can Do That I Have Not Already Done To Myself

There will always be these people.

I'm not offended, mad, or upset.

Everyone is entitled to their opinion, even if it's my friends and family who are opposed to this, annoyed by it, or simply don't care. That's ok, spend your time being awesome- that's what I want to see and that's what I'm trying to do with my life.

This is my outlet. This is my story. This is my recovery. I'm going to my own personal hell and back and giving it to the world so my daughter won't have to and hopefully others all well.

My current condition makes almost all of my life out of my control. When I get help and get better there will be an evolution to this blog and my story. I'm getting all the bad out so I can show myself and other people the imperfections of dealing with emotional disorders and my eventual move up into a functional way of life

I'm not a unique snowflake- I'm one of millions of people with this disorder and I'm glad I'm not alone. My case is severe but nowhere near as bad as it gets and I'm grateful to not have it worse. But I empathize with everyone else and their struggle be it bipolar or not. Behavioral, psychological, and mental disorders are difficult at every level.

I cannot change people's view of me and nor would I if I could.

This statement is coming from a warped perspective and a need for self gratification and hopefully they got what they needed. When I'm successful and have accomplished everything I've set out to do and overcome my set backs I will dedicate all of that to these people- the ones who take the time out of their day and spend it on me in an effort to bring me down. There is NOTHING anyone can try to do that is worse than the struggle inside myself.

These people are my launching pad to a better life.

I will not be going back to that page to see the responses and the wave of other hateful anonymous posts that are sure to follow. I shouldn't have gone there in the first place- I already knew some people view it this way. I just wanted something solid to remind myself everything I have to deal with.

OP, most of the people reading it aren't from Facebook. This is bigger than you and myself. Oh, and if you think I'm doing this for attention then thank you for your time and the attention you're giving me.

Thanks for reading.


  1. That entire page is nothing more than a ranting cesspool of trolling and being as offensive as possible in order to score "wrongness points" in the scene.

    Moreover, as I commented, the "cool" thing to do is claim that you have an immeasurable number of disorders to be more broken than the next kid in the scene. What that means is that, for those of us who actually do have issues we deal with, every day, they have to find a way to downplay it, in order to make themselves look even more broken.

    Also, consider the number of people who claim to be sociopaths or psychopaths as a cover for just being an asshole.

    What I'm saying is this. Keep doing your thing, and ignore all the static.


  2. I love you. That page is boring and full of people with low self esteem who can't seem to function without putting others down. It's no longer amusing since all they have to say is the same old bs that's been going around for years. Not worth my or your time! You keep doing what you need to do to get yourself right <3